today i realized how much i love being spontaneous. i'm buying a ticket for india on wednesday. spending thanksgiving in new delhi with my sisters.
do you ever notice how incredibly strange things are falling into place for you? that's currently happening to me, and i'm so scared that what i'm running towards will be taken out from under my feet.
i like that i don't keep it consistant. my plans are constantly changing only so that my finger tips can clutch onto the one that pulls the strings of my heart.
i went from graduating early not know what i might do and quickly swooping in an booking my spring semester for india, then i jumped to africa knowing i was supposed to be doing something bigger than myself, then i just waited. And realized that i can not picture my spring semester any different. I have to be a roadie. I almost feel like it's my responsibility. I owe it to those kids to be their voice. That's where God needs me my spring semester. I just know it.
I'm almost scared as to how strange my semester is working out for me. still doing india. but not in the spring. where on earth will I be my spring semester?
I wonder if it's possible to love people too much. I just love you guys.
Each and every single person in this world has something they're good at. They have potential.
and I just love capturing that.
I love finding that.
I love helping people see that.
I think it's something special when someone can finally become content with the heart that God gave them.
I swear, it's the best feeling you can possibly have.
Embrace it. Run with it.
kinsley. i love how beautiful you look and sound when you sit down and play the piano. i love it when you get frustrated. i love it when i organize your clothes for camp. i love listening to you tell stories. i love hearing about your passions and how big your heart is. i love laying on your bed in silence or in laughter. i love staying up late and just talking. i love the pictures you capture. i love incredibly large arches. :) i love that we're the only ones that know what bobfe means...since the 7th grade. i just love how creative you are, and i wonder if you realize it. i love the way you write. you may rant. but it's perfect. it's you. it's real. it's writing. i love it when i can make you laugh. and i just love how lasting our relationship is, no matter what i know you love me.
brooke. i love it more than anything when you laugh really hard. i love it when you almost pee your pants from laughing. i love listening to you try and figure out what it is you want to do or where you need to be. i love watching you piece together something in your heart. i love how many times we dye your hair. i love how insecure you can be, because i'm always happy to be able to see how incredibly beautiful you are as a person. i just love it when you get excited about something and you just pursue it. i love it when we talk in our voice and you call me bill. i love how excited you get when i tell you about the adventures i'm pursuing.
alyssa. i love how ridiculously good you look with short hair. i love how incredibly talented you are at art. i love the way you decorate your room and i love walking in a trying my hardest to find something new. i love coming over to do homework really late but just staying up so late talking. i love watching the sunrise with you. i love looking at the stars with you and taking in God's infinite goodness. i love how brilliant you are. i love how devoted we are at looking at the stars even when we're shaking from how cold it is. i love the way you go crazy and just dance like no one is watching. i love doing opera singing commentary with you. i just love how sincere you are.
lyndsey. i love how lame we used to be and how we always pretended we were ninjas. i love it when i rediscover how incredibly intelligent you are and how good you are at listening. i love listening to you talk when you're incredibly happy or when i can just see your heart bursting with passion. i love getting you bracelets because the ones i find you mean so much to me, i just feel like they can capture you perfectly. i love the fact that still to this day you can not sit still or you're always shredding something. i just love it. I love listening to you humb along to a song even though sometimes you're off beat. i love it.
Laura. i love how happy you are. i love your smile. i love your laugh. i love how beautiful you are inside and out. i love always finding you online on facebook and how awkward our conversations used to be. i love that everytime i talk to you online you're basically illegally watching movies. i love how passionate you are about reaching out to others. i love the voice you use when you say "hey bails." i love it when it's late and you still have so much homework to do, but you got it all under control, it's a no worries. i just love it when we walk down town and talk. i love listening to you and seeing you glow.
Nick. i love how crazy you are. i love how passionate you are about things and i love it when you share with me what God is putting on your heart. i love that you're the only person i know that knows every song that ever existed. i love how caring you can be and how proud you can be of someone. i love how good you are at dancing haha. i love how good you are at doing tricks off the swing. i love it when you do your crazy loud laugh. i just love how funny you are.
Brianna. i love you. i love how beautiful you are. i love how much we love mariokart on the wii. i love how good you are at it too. i love your laugh. i love how intelligent you are. i love it when we just lay in your bed and just talk. i love it when you and kinsley go crazy and won't let me talk when we're all in your room. i love how much you love moulin rouge. i love how happy you can get. i love being able to see how wonderful you truly are. i love the nicknames i have for you. i love it when addie and i are at your house with everyone and how insanely loud we are. i love how much of a genuine person you are. i just love being able to be someone who listens to you.
Rachel. i love how hilarious you are. i love how talented you are at things. i love how gorgeous you are. i love wathcing friends with you. i love how insanely good you are at drawing. i love how late we always stayed up. i love it when i can capture the sincerity in you. i love it when we lay in your hammock really really late at night. i love how great of a person you are and sometimes i wonder if you see who i see. i love how smart you are and i love it when you laugh. i just love it when i can see you going for what you want.
Tyler. i love it when you have long hair. i love it when we dress up like it's the 80s. i love how sincere you are. i love how funny you are. i love how passionate you are about things. i love how incredible you are when it comes to art. i love how much friendships mean to you. i love playing halo with you. so much. i love it when you laugh. i love how meaningful things are to you. i love how outgoing you are and i love how loud you are. i love how crazy you can be. i just love more than anything how great of a guy you are.
Hannah. i love your laugh more than anything. i love how strong of a person you are. i love your passions. i love how insanely good you are at volleyball. i love singing chicago's saturday in the park with you. i love dancing and singing to ain't no mountain high enough with you after every home volleyball game. i love how much of a leader you are. i love it when your nostrils go crazy when you laugh. i love how incredible you are as a person. i love how funny your are. i love how happy you can be. i love how good you are at listening and how good you are at talking. i just love how much fun we have together and when we sing im yours at the top of our lungs.
Kelsey. i love how bubbly you are. i love how beautiful your eyes are. i love it when you laugh. i love it when i can make you laugh. i love being a person who listens to you. i love it when you share things with me. i love how happy you always are. i love that i can see someone that is so beautiful inside and out. i love sitting inside cafe with you and gradually seeing that you know you're worth it and how deeply loved you are. i love that you can trust me with things. i love it when we can't stop laughing at practice. i just love it when we start laughing during games more than anything.
Paul. i love how great of a friend you can be. i love coming over and just listening to you talk. i love hearing about your dreams. i love it when you're excited. i love how much you've gone through to get where you are now. i love the voices that you can do. i love going rock climbing with you. i love that you're dyslexic. i love how much you can make me laugh. i love how caring you can be. i love being able to see how great of a person you're becoming. i love that you're enjoying everything again. i just love that you're going to do what you want and just go for it.
sometimes i feel like i should write myself a book. write down all of my friends and the reasons why i love them.
so i'll never forget.
I love capturing that.